Glass All Full

    Throughout our lives, we will meet people. Countless people. People that will change our lives, people that will make us smile, people that will change our minds, people that will pass by, forever a fragment of a glimpse with no names attached. A lot of times, those people can be great. But sometimes, they can hurt you. And I want to dedicate this blogpost about the latter and how maybe we can grow from that hurt.

    I've been fortunate enough to meet some amazing people throughout my life. Some great profs who I've become friends with, some random strangers that approached me as a customer and left having clicked with me (and I with them), and some people that have changed my life forever. I've also been fortunate enough to learn how to communicate effectively, and perhaps even more importantly, to learn to understand people.

   One of the best things that has happened to me as of now is meeting a very special friend of mine when I was only 16. He changed the course of my life forever (and for the better), but this blog isn't dedicated to that - perhaps we can write about it some other time. This is about the opposite.

    For quite a number of years I thought I knew someone very, very well. For the better part of half a decade I had gotten to know them, and shared very sacred (shall we say secrets?) with them, and likewise they did with me. This rapport established a certain trust, and eventually a bond between us was built. Inevitably, with the passing of time, this bond got stronger and stronger, and we got closer. However during all this time, something felt off. I felt as if there were things behind the curtain that I couldn't see. And I voiced this. But I let my guard drop and let everything continue.

   It's funny how quickly things can change. Within the span of 12 hours, I went from having one of my closest friends that I would literally take a bullet for, to never wanting to associate with them again, all because of one ugly thing: the truth. I've written about the truth before, so go check that out, but in this instance, it's a little bit different. It's about the lack thereof, and how once sucked into a lie, everything just crumbles. That truth destroyed our relationship, shook it to the core until there was nothing left, laughed in my face, screaming until it was out of air, yelling at me for letting myself believe my intuition was wrong.

   Needless to say, I was hurt. But it forced me to wake up. To see what was going on and why this pattern had been repeating itself (this wasn't the first time such a thing had happened). It forced me to realize, internalize, and fully understand how vivid and correct my intuition had been, and to always listen to myself. It made me realize to trust myself, before trusting anyone else, and that is so much easier to put into words than to put into action. It made me realize the type of person I am and showed me how good that is, showed me that I'm a giver and I enjoy giving, and how I value it and made me see I don't ever want to change that, even though some loved ones may say otherwise. The hurt showed me the truth, in so many ways. The loss I endured made me find love, love in myself which is worth so much more than any friendship or relationship can offer.

    Ultimately, we will be hurt. Things will happen and we will be bent, broken, and made to feel helpless and hapless. But the one thing that I want to share with you is if you ever lose faith in something or someone, never EVER lose faith in yourself. Love yourself, and work hard every day to make that bond greater. Work on it more than you work on your friendships, professional life, or your relationship with your significant other. Because at the end, when you love yourself, that love will transpire into everything that you do and make it that much more enjoyable. Love your inner most being, your deepest core. Because at the core of life, it's just you and no-one will stay around forever.

   People can always leave you, take things away from you, but they can never take you away from yourself.

Peace ✌️

PS, I know this post is totally cryptic, but I'm experimenting with a new writing style (and of course, keeping anonymity as always), so this is meant to resonate with different people differently. Take it with a grain of salt (or whatever seasoning you prefer)!